My body clock is all out of sync

I go to sleep late, I wake up late. That’s how my life is right now. I hate going to sleep late and waking up late. I like waking up early because I actually get things done when there’s daylight then where there isn’t. During the night time, I usually feel like relaxing with a movie or just doing something that doesn’t require me to focus and use my mind too much. That’s one of the reasons why when I was in high school, if I didn’t finish my homework during the day, I would go to sleep early and wake up at 3AM to finish the rest of the work. I also usually finished the work not because it was the morning, but because I had the stress of finishing the work motivating me to hurry up and focus. It’s such a bad habit, and I know I have to correct it in time for college.

Nowadays, with nothing to motivate me to wake up early, I can sleep to as late as 11AM, which I hate! I just wasted all my morning sleeping! But I also can’t fall asleep too early anymore. I tried to go to sleep at 12AM a few days ago, and I just couldn’t fall asleep. I guess I’ll have to slowly allow myself to go to sleep earlier. I wish there was some motivation for me. If I get a job, I would definitely obtain the motivation. But right now, all I have are some odd-end jobs. I do have a project for creating a website right now, but I can do it on my own time, so it doesn’t require me to get up early.

Yesterday, I obtained a tiny bit of motivation to go to sleep earlier. My mother yelled up the stairs, “Yingna! Are you becoming Tina?!” This actually made me giggle, because when I was in high school, I had always went to sleep early (so I could wake up early), so I told my mother since she was worrying about my sister going to sleep too late, “Don’t worry mom. When I go to college, I’ll be sure to get enough sleep.” Turns out before college even starts, that’s not going to happen.